• Truffle@lemmy.ml
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    11 hours ago

    I caught myself in an old defense mechanism loop and was able to stop, breath, sit with the discomfort and own that motherfucking trauma response for what it is, then dismiss it and carry on with my day. So, like a very proud ten.

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      16 hours ago

      ROFL. You can’t win them all champ. Keep going though. Greatness is achieved when you push further than what others are willing to do.

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      16 hours ago

      Take it or leave it insight: I have learned that procrastination can be chalked up to two things. 1. You don’t know where to start on said thing and perhaps feel overwhelmed by it. 2. You don’t know how to break down the objective into more manageable steps. And so you put it off ‘until you feel like you have a clue.’

      An old saying that strongly applies here. “How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.”

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    15 hours ago

    Maybe 6. Im back to college and learning precalc after being out of school for like 10+ years. A lot of relearning old stuff and learning new stuff at the same time.

    It makes me anxious honestly.

    • TehBamski@lemmy.worldOP
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      15 hours ago

      My goodness! I’m glad things went well during the open heart surgery. How long is the recovery for such a thing?

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        Pretty sure it’s lifetime. Surgery was at the end of 2018, they cracked me open like a lobster. I’ve got a 10" scar from just under my chin to just over my belly button.

        2019 was one complication after another.

        2nd heart attack in January.

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    19 hours ago

    1 i been fee- actually nvm i just beat the piss out of a couple monsters in morrowind using my bare fists. Solid 4 cus of that lol

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      16 hours ago

      Hahaha. Putting yourself in another world (and one where you’re stronger or have special abilities,) is a nice way to escape the worries of the day.

      Have you tried beating up some monsters with a spoon yet? haha

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        Not yet but funny enough I think there’s a fork that can be used as a weapon so I’ll be on the lookout for that😂

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    I overcame my social anxiety today and went to the office after a long period of sickness and it was great! I really missed seeing other people than my wife for a change! :D In the evening I ran my pathfinder campaign and it went really well, save for some hiccups from foundry, which is the online tool that we are using, so maybe an 8?

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      Oh that’s awesome! Social anxiety ain’t no joke. Glad to hear that you’re doing better. It’s really fun to play TTRPGs. Especially with a good group of people.

      Are you running a pre-made or home-brew campaign? I’m interested to hear more.

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        Thanks for the kind words! I’ve been battling with it for around a year now or maybe a little longer. I suspect long covid, because it basically followed a hefty period of brain fog after a covid infection, but therapy and supplements help immensely :)

        I’m running the pre-made campaign season of ghosts as a first time GM. It’s an Asian themed mystical horror setting and it does a good job of guiding me through it as I don’t have that much experience running games yet.

        The only thing that is a little debatable is the difficulty of the fights, which are intended to be on the easier/very easier side, which I don’t really like, so I’m adjusting the fights, but I have five players and it is written for four, so that makes it even harder to gauge, as well as some variant rules we use that make the PCs a little stronger.

        Until now, the PCs steamrolled pretty much every fight and boss fight, but yesterday I upped the difficulty dramatically and it was a really exciting boss battle! So I think I’m finally getting a grasp on gauging the difficulty better