After what seems like a year of near constant stress, disappointment, and loneliness, I decided to stop sitting at my computer all day and start making better choices for myself. This was a really hard thing to do for me since I work from home about two feet from my entertainment area. I would end up sitting at my desk all day and neglecting things that I wanted to do and I wasn’t sure why.
This month I have:
Set up the Ender 3 V2 that was sitting in my closet for two years and printed out a bunch of cool shit with my kid.
Exercised every other day to try to help myself with some vicious joint pain that has developed recently.
Kept the dishes from piling up on my desk.
Made doctor and dentist appointments.
Don’t get me wrong, things are still stressful and disappointing, but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time. What have you done to care for yourself lately? Digging yourself out of depression is hard and I want to hear your successes, no matter how small they are.
I started learning a little about music theory. I’ve been interested for a while, but always thought I wouldn’t be able to understand it. But it’s doable, a little at a time.
And I’ve been going outside more. I spend too much time in front of the computer. It’s nice to have fresh air and read, listen to music, or just take in the surroundings.
I started responding to posts that start with “Heyo” so things are looking good so far.
Can I be the guy that replies to the guy that responds to posts that start with “Heyo”? I don’t really have a lot going on
Trying to mentally/emotionally distance myself from my “customer service” job. Like, pretending I’m not a CSR, but that I’m playing the role of a CSR in a show, or something. After over 10 years working jobs like this, and for multiple reasons, the stress and asshole customers have been making me even even more miserable than necessary lately.
At the very least, this is helping me stay cool-headed and friendly enough to piss off angriest/most condescending callers, which can be pretty cathartic sometimes. It’s not so effective when it’s overwhelmingly busy, though.
Also, calling my lawyer, which was extremely stressful to me for literally no logical reason. Actually, I had a reason to look forward to it.
I’m day thirty of my no poop challenge.
I started exercising, I quite embarrassingly couldn’t do even a single push-up, I can do 20 now.
My Ender 5 has been lying around for 3 years, maybe I’ll dust it off during the weekend :)
As of yesterday, I played hard-ball with a job I really wanted, and it paid off to the tune of a salary I previously never would have dreamed of. Stressful as hell, but sometimes you gotta take risks.
I’ve been going on lots of walks and jogs, I try to go at least once a day. It’s good for my mental health which has otherwise been kinda bad lately.
I read about Buddhism and meditation and it got me through depression. “Being Peace” by Thich Nahn Hahn changed my life.
Thanks for the suggestion, I found a pdf of it online I’ll check it out
Everything is temporary, friend. Money, possessions, and stature won’t make you happy. You have to happiness in yourself. You can do hard things and you are worth happiness.
Sir it’s the IRS
The IRS is temporary. The country is temporary. The ground you walk on is temporary. It’s all a grand, elaborate dance of pointless space-time and there is nothing as important as how you feel and how you make others feel.
But do pay your taxes.
I finally started working out again! I also work from home and my Job made me miserable, but I’ll be starting a new Job in November and that gave me hope and motivation to pull myself out of the depression hole.
Trying to stick to my feeding plan as much as I can. It gets difficult at times so every day I can check that box, I feel happy.
Using heavier weights for my workouts. It makes me feel great and so powerful to help my body fight stored trauma.
Using my words to be able to say what I want to say.
Well it’s the first of October now but in September I was off sick with exhaustion, so I got a blood test done after a couple of years of putting it off, just to be sure of course. I rearranged my bedroom too for a change. I spoke to my supervisor at work saying I need more rest, so making sure I get breaks every day and not too many workdays in a row.
My tip for anyone who’s suddenly struck with enough motivation to pull yourself out the hole: I find using a tasks app helps an awful lot with not only remembering to everything and when to do it but with feeling a bit of satisfaction when I mark it as done. Which reminds me, I need to tick off that I’ve taken my soup out the freezer this morning.
Finally got some medical stuff sorted out. Also been working on my weight. I finished replayingg the original Kingdom Hearts on PS2 purely for my own enjoyment, which was fun, but I think that was last month.
